*I made a pretty decent rant earlier but accidentally ERASED it!!! So I'll just go with this messy rant :D And Āwhina **(Ah-Fee-Nah)
dear, I used your beautiful quote in my jumble of words ;)*
This is my
She was broken
Hope had been stripped from me at every minute of every hour of every day for my entire life. ~ Abby
and this is my
He was damaged
“...you know what’s worse than being a sick son of a bitch?”“Knowing you’re a sick son of a bitch.” ~ Jake
This is their heartbreaking
story of pain
and the gritty
things in between.
Jake's father blamed him for the death of his mom and his brother.
it never should’ve been his perfect, straight A-earning, scholarship-winning, baseball captain and expert fisherman son who died that day. It should have been his weed-dealing, girl-chasing, fight-picking, school-skipping degenerate of a son.
It should have been me... ~ Jake
He hated his son and it wasn't the I-Couldn't-Stand-Your-Face
kind of hate, it was the I-Want-To-Fucking-Axe-Your-Head-And-Make-You-Bleed-To-Death
kind of hate. Yeah, it wasn't just an Emotional hatred, but it was also downright a dangerous Physical hate.
So Jake left home. He left everything
behind, his identity, his old life and rode away into the darkness
of the outside world. Succumbing to a darker side of the world. And he became an assassin
He was Alive
but he wasn't Living
. Until he returned home and met Her
I expected nothing, until the night I met a certain redhead with an attitude.
The night I met Abby Ford, my life changed forever. ~ Jake
Abby was broken
beyond repair. Her skin was tattooed with visible
How could I be proud of the ugliness on my body, left on me courtesy of the ugliness in people?~ Abby
...while her heart was branded with the invisible
She used to have hopes
but they got crashed. She used to dream of happiness
, but that was crushed too. She craved normal
, and that chance was crushed too.
Inside, I was crying, screaming, raging against whatever higher power would be so cruel that it would give me a taste of normalcy then strip it all away. Outside, I was a robot. ~ Abby
No fate wasn't cruel to her, it was fucking
cruel to her.
No, people wasn't atrocious to her, they were fucking
atrocious to her.
No, life wasn't messing with her, it was fucking
messing with her.
But then she met Jake.. He scared
her..but she felt safe
“You’re not nothing. Don’t ever fucking say that again, because you’re everything.” He said it again, quietly this time, “You’re fucking everything, Bee.” ~ Jake
wasn't used to people. She wasn't used to touches. And she wasn't used to love. But she was willing to try. She was willing to try, to heal her broken heart. She was willing to work from the start to fix her fucked up past. While at the same time fixing his too.
I wanted him to help me heal, and for him to heal with me.
I wanted to take on his pain because he’d taken mine so completely. ~ Abby
He surrounded her head and she filled his mind.
...you make the silence bearable
Jake taught her how to love
and how it feels like to be loved
She had lost everything so he became her everything.
He was the light and the darkness, all at the same time. ~ Abby
But love wasn't enough enough when fate decided to meddled in and broke their healing hearts into even smaller pieces, cutting it, making it bled. Bleeding so bad that everything was smeared with the ugliness of the blood.
It was a surprise… sounded like a death train… left everything broken and twisted in it’s wake… almost killed…scared to death…lost everything…would never be the same… ~ Abby
She was hurt
, she was broken
and she was damaged
. However she refused to give up
. But him
I wasn’t the happy ending type, after all. I was the fucked-up kid that fucked-up shit happened to. ~ Abby
But when it's real love, we don't stop loving, right?
Together, we were just us.
Battered and broken. Dark and difficult. Impulsive and scared. ~ Abby
p/s: (The other 0.5 Star was sucked by the AGE factor, they were TOOOOO young...